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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 02:46

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

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My life is so biszare .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I said to her

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The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Why did my ex-narcissist move so fast with his new supply marriage engagement moving in, etc.?

Ive learnt so much.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

What is the most craziest dream you ever had?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

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I was seconnd youngest,

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Why do I keep dreaming of my mom, who recently passed away from cancer, still being sick and in pain?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

How can I control my daily masturbating habit?

She wouldn,t have been !

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

One cannot live in the past .

I couldn’t, believe it.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

So whats the point in blame.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

She loved him until the end.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

But it wasn’t much.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Put me off passion for life!!

I waited trembling.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And i lived it daily.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Comes on , in middle age.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Who then, do I blame.?

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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I was 9 years of age.

What did i know ?

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

When she asked me how she looked .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I was scared of men, in general

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I think the readers, may guess!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

(And it was in our own minds.)

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She married twice! .

So, i spoilt her more .

I will be 64.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She found it foreign!.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I write beautiful poetry .

Why did i forgive my father ?

She was in good health!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But, we were locked up after school.

My family never makes their pension either.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

It was going to be , some day.

We all went to grammer schools

But ive been too sick for many years..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Im still living with it.

I have no regrets .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I don,t even have a pension.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

We were not on the streets..

I was very sick at this time too.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I could never make a relationship work though!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Especially a lifetime of it.

This is soul school!.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He resisted the act ,that day.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

All the time i was locked up.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He knew the spot.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Was to survive, this bastard.

I never cut or harmed myself..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..